i wish you and your families a blessed christmas!
christmas eve in africa
the ceiling fan is on at full blast. i have a chicken roasting in the oven to serve cold tomorrow, and a creamy potato dish to serve hot tonight. the asparagus and mustard sauce are ready, i still need to make potato salad. 2 meals in progress at once.. tomorrow we are having christmas lunch at my mom's house. no crowds, just the 6 of us. everyone has to do a meat and a staple and a veg. all cold. francois is making pears in red wine. he practised on us on saturday. mmmm! tonight, francois, mike and myself are having dinner at home. sean is visiting his mom for the holidays.
a cheesy christmas cd is playing 'i'm dreaming of a white christmas'. mike is asleep on the couch, with kietsie, the obsessed cat - obsessed with mike - also asleep on his chest.
at last i got into the christmas spirit. i still worked this morning, and i only felt the first stirring of christmas cheer in woollies this afternoon. i think is was the outrageously expensive glazed hams that triggered it...
last week a client in my shop said something that has made me think: she said 'i am not a christmassy person. i mean, i believe in the birth of Jesus and everything, but i do not really enjoy christmas. besides, i'm working, and it feels like everyone is having a party, and i'm not invited". and since she said that, i have come to the realization that i feel exactly the same! this is the first time that i have actually admitted it, even to myself, but it's true. and since i have started talking about it, many people have told me they feel the same. this time of year i am tired, and filled with an unspeakable sadness, for i don't know what. and i have felt this way for as long as i can remember, from some weeks before christmas till after new year. and somehow, if you say this to a christmassy person, they look at you as though you are mad, or you are suffering from depression, or something bad is wrong with you.
anyway, i am making the best of it. i have learned something about myself. and next year, i'll be more pro-active, i'll book a few days away for myself and mike, somewhere special.
i have to go and finish supper. i hope you are a christmassy person, and your day is a magical fairytale come true for you. i hope you remember that all the gift-giving is a reminder of the ultimate gift from GOD, HIS gift of everlasting life for us. especially to rene, ineke, liza, linda, janine, gerty, mathilda and everyone else who pops into this blog regularly, i hope you have a great family day.
love,
jacki